Edit:
Thanks to all for your kind comments. I don't feel 100% yet... but at least I'm a bit better.

Now I'll focuse my energies on University stuff... and on trying to get well.
Sorry if I'm not too active here.

I love you all

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Dear destructive thoughts:
PLEASE, DIE NOW
Sorry for being such a pain in the neck... But I just feel the urge of telling this.
Oh God, I've been so sad, under the weather those days. After some meditation I've realized I'm doing nothing else but damaging myself (metaphorically) with my stupid thoughts. I feel anxious and scared all day, over EVERYTHING.
Damn, that's not an easy thing to get rid of
Suddenly I found that everybody's stuff is better than mine... Suddenly I feel that my stuff is crap... that I made a mistake creating some characters... Suddenly I think I'm going to make people feel totally bored of too much complaining...

too many bad things >_<

I hope this doesn't last too much, because I'm TI-RED!!

I hope that when I am a year older (in more or less a month) the stupidity goes away... ¬¬ woohooooooh I doubt that sooooooooooo much...

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Current status: away very busy.

Submitting status: temporarily stopped


This is not definite because I'm leavin' forevah or stuff like that. Never, ever This is definite because I can guess (I think) from when to when it's going to last. Until 13th August, if everything goes well. I finish exams on 8th July and on 10th I'll go on holiday for more that one month. No internet, only my dear family, a Wii, wonderful beaches, more dear family and happyness

I don't want to create "drama" online... specially because some intolerant people think that if you get a little dramatic once or twice, you're not a normal person and immediately you got labelled as "a freak with no life who is always moaning and complaining"... when the most normal thing in the world is to have certain "dramatic issues" from time to time, and you fancy to tell them in front of the people you appreciate most, searching for advice or just love.

That's why I'm going to be sincere with you all


I need time to think (and to pass exams, hehe).

So I'll be quite absent. Will check from time to time, but I don't think I'll submit much art... maybe one, maybe two... maybe some gifts for some people or maybe nothing, until I get fixed all things.

It's true that today I've updated a little my gallery, but with old art. To be sincere, I'm barely drawing lately. I'm afraid that my DA will be quite dead for the next two months. The main reason is University exams. The most important exams are coming... Maybe to pass them or not will mean to receive a scolarship next year... or not!

The other is that once again I'm feeling... weird and even some kind of "uncomfortable" submitting certain things. The fandom drama is getting hold of me. You may don't believe me, but it'll be my b-day next month and it seems like I'm "stupidiest" each year that passes (please, don't take this literally!! )... that's the problem of had never fixed some "emotional problems". They come back. And a very little issue can become a whole world for me. That's what happening to me... I don't want to make you feel bored with details It's not llama-drama. It's a common disorder called anxiety. (Stephen King once said that all we are a little crazy but some of us have avoided the asylum )

I feel constantly... guilty. I'm always believing that I annoy people. If someone doesn't salute me in the street, I immediatly feel that I've done something bad. If someone does not reply me a comment, I think that he or she doesn't like me or that I've said something wrong.

I think people don't fancy me because I dare to have certain fancharacters doing certain things (well, some people certainly do that... ). But that people are not the people in the world... So, why just a few of unkind words among millions of kind words make me feel so upset? I'm really fed up with my stupid thoughts. I've been pretty scared about submitting some things related with my fanfiction stuff. I don't know why, but I feel anxious; there is a fixed idea in my mind that someone is going to flame me because my fanarts, because I invent Xmine character to be with Xcanon character... WHY? Why should I be worried about SUCH A NONSENSE? Is just a FANDOM! Nothing which I invent does exist, (neither the canon, anyway)! What the hell happens with me?

To be sincere, is FRUSTRATING

Two nice comments from you must be enough for me. And they are. That's why I'm so upset, because when I'm in this mood, it seems I can only care for bad things and I don't appreciate your nice words. Sorry! It's not my intention. You always make me smile and feel that I need to get rid of these bad, self-destructive feelings.

Something I do for pure fun must not create so much drama to me. That's why I feel so upset with myself, for being worried for such nonsenses. That's why I've decided I need to think, to meditate, to realize that I have no enemies, that people don't hate me, and all that stuff...

All will pass. Sooner or later. It always, always do ^^


Phew. I feel much better after say all that... I hope I won't regret it


Kisses to all of you Thanks for being there. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve such good DA friends!

(I'll keep you informed of my success and failures in exams. I hope they can be success... at least 4 from 5 )


Wish me luck!!!

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About my DA

-Fanart, fan characters, original ilustration works, costumes.
-Watercolor, pencil, ink and water, Photoshop.
-I love cute/shojo manga and children-related drawings. My style is more often like classical illustration. I draw a lot of chibis too They're so lovely! I'm always trying to make a chibi of everything I can
- The thing you are going to see more often from me is Fanart. Yes, I'm a proud fanartist and I create lots of fancharacters, so if it is not your cup of tea, why are you wasting your time in my little place? I only do fanarts por pure fun and because sometimes I enjoy to share it with other fans, so I'm not into much unnecesary drama. You like or you don't like, and that's all
- Original characters in the Internet is not my thing to do, so I'm sorry.
- Remember that if you don't like pairing canon characters with fan characters, simply don't look I have a lot of these.




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